Friday, May 28, 2010
Know pain, feel it!
Know pain, feel pain
Exco positions for wushu out.
Damn disappointed. Wasn't I good enough?
Why? Some even have 2 pdps and are so damn busy. They still got the positions. I didn't.
I really devote myself to it. Although I'm not good in it, I'm working hard, I'm trying hard. I'm improving.I hope I am. Why is it that some people that don't even bother improving themselves get them?
WHY?
You think that just cos I'm TA2 I can't handle anything?
Or is it cos you think that I'm too childish to handle things properly?
Or that I don't give a damn about any other thing? I'm selfish?
What is it?
Do you really know?
What happened to the place of quarter master? You guys felt it was a stupid post and decided to get rid of it?
I thought trng I/C + captain will be together. What's going on?
I know I shouldn't blame you, and I should respect the decision you made.
But why? Tell me why. I really want to know why.
It's very clear. You don't trust me. You didn't trust me. You cannot trust me. You will not trust me.
I see things very clearly now.
I didn't know that was how you thought of me. I thought that you guys were different from seniors of other pdps.
I thought you guys trusted me. I thought that you seniors were the best seniors ever.
It's clear now. I was wrong. It hurts.
On a side note, I'm really glad. The new J1s are really good. Thanks Ronald,Kh and Waileng for comforting me :) Really. Congrats to some of you too. I'm not pissed off or angry at you guys, serious. This has nothing to do with you guys, and I'll never blame you for getting the posts (: Thanks.
Blogged at Friday, May 28, 2010
